I have been in a process of discernment, and Aida has asked me to share it with you. I do not often speak of such personal feeling or events, so please bear with me.
Some would say I received a call, but for me it is more like being shoved, pulled, and dragged to this realization. At first it was a gentle nudge, “No, not me.” I thought. Then it was a little shove. “No, this is just a feeling. It will pass.” It did not pass, and I thought, “No, I am so imperfect. I am a broken vessel with many flaws, not me.” Then the dreams started, and the wonderful coincidences and this amazing warmth, this closeness to God and Jesus, this absolute peace in my whole being when I contemplated ”is this really real?” Of course, the practical person I am, again the, “No, not me. I’m just going a little mental. I am not worthy.” This went on for a while, until Aida, one Sunday announced, “If anyone has a call, please see me.” Well, I was thinking, “Nooo,” and then it came out, “Yes, it is true! THANK YOU GOD, I truly hear You.” I went to Aida and told her I felt called, and that I would like to have a discernment group to confirm what I have come to believe. I did not presume and do not presume that God was or is talking to me without the discernment of others.
With the help of others, Aida, George, Joanna, and Pat, the process began. We did a study called Women Called to Ministry. Also, the Spiritual Gifts Survey that George uses to help people see what their gifts are, and the best areas to use their gifts, helped me see what path I should take.
According to the survey, my gifts are supporting people in worshiping God and gifts that sustain all ministries. Some of it I see and some I don’t, but, nobody sees everything about themselves. I will believe George. He has been doing this for a long time. So, with this wonderful help, and with faith and prayer, I would like to start the process of becoming a local pastor, pending approval, of course. I would appreciate your support, your love and your prayers.
Blessings, and may the Peace of God be with you,